Tuesday, December 28, 2010

FINALE VIDEO - 2010






Wrapping up my year. I am so excited about what God has in store for my future. Check out the video!!!!



Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Reflections on Day 209: THE TRAINING HAS BEGUN...

So, I am on interterm from school and I decided to go harder and sign up with a trainer....what was I thinking? JUST KIDDING! I think God has blessed me with the most amazing trainer. Nevertheless, my body is in pain. Has me doing things I've never seen done...lol...All in all, I am proud of myself. Today was day 2 of training and at the end of the session she had me running sprints. I was so tired by time I stepped on and she asked me if I wanted to stop but I paused for a second and while my body was screaming, "YES"...my mind said "NO"...Bob from the Biggest Loser has a saying, "Stand up and finish what you started."

That quote has stuck with me every since I heard it on the show. I came in there with one goal, FINISH! So I told her that I am going to finish. I am so proud of myself these days. I have never felt more accomplished in my life. I am not going to lie. All of my fears have not dissipated but as I continue to look fear in the face and not allow it to hinder me, I become stronger and stronger and more able to fight my fears. I am only at session 2 of the 8 training sessions but I am excited about the girl I will be on the other side of these sessions.

The thing I like about trainers is that they push you harder than you would ever push yourself. They surpasses my pre-set limitations and they teach me that I am stronger than I allow myself to believe. We all need people in our lives like that, whether they are your trainers or friends, mentors, pastors. whatever! You need to be in the midst of people who see a better you, in you and will not give up on you. I have been blessed with an entire community of people who do that for me, from friends to people from church to my trainer. I love it! I feel like I have an advantage over others because I have sooooo many people in my corner. I know that I was not strong enough to do all of this on my own, I would not even be proud or cocky enough to make such a claim. I've needed every ounce of support that has been provided to dig deep and push and here I am 137lbs lighter!

THE TRAINING HAS BEGUN AND I AM EXCITED TO FINISH STRONG!!!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

350LBS AND DANCING! - Mobile.m4v

I don't ever want to be the girl who says, "Now that I am small, I can love myself." That's not my story. It's not my journey. I began to love me even when I was bigger and it was greatly because God had put people in my life who loved and accepted me as I was. So, as I journey to being a smaller me, I never want to forget the girl what was 350lbs and still loving life! This video is a tribute to a friend of mine was has passed but lives on with Jesus and especially in my heart. I pray that you have people in your life who empower you to BE YOU!!!




Sunday, December 5, 2010

REFLECTIONS ON MY 5K...12/5/2010




Today, December 5th, this morning, at 7:30am on the Back Lot of Universal Studios, I RAN MY FIRST EVER 5K. I have so many emotions, thoughts and feelings about this monumental moment in my life. You know, I am finally starting to feel like the girl I always knew was truly hidden deep inside of me. It’s like I am allowing her to be unleashed. I am not becoming some new, and unheard of Liana. I am unleashing the beast that has always been trapped behind all of my fears, uncertainties, and insecurities about life.

I’ve always felt that deep inside of me, there was an athlete but while I wanted to experience that world, my weight and fear of other people’s thoughts of me, held me bound and unmovable. I kinda just moved through life, experiencing happy moments but never really satisfied for full of joy because I always knew that a piece of me was trapped, silenced, tamed, paralyzed. But, this morning....THIS MORNING symbolized that unleashing of the me inside of all of me.

Around this time, 2007, I set out to take back my own life...to fight obesity. I was 350 plus pounds and miserable underneath all of the weight. I was a happy girl but my weight was just a hinderance that kept me from experiencing the fullness of life and i decided, NO MORE!....Here I am 3 years later, 220lbs and still fighting the fight. I’ve always felt like there was a runner deep inside of me. God didn’t give me these calves for nothing. I have not attainted it yet, but I press towards the mark...striving for excellence, knowing that God has not brought me this far along my journey to quit now.

I feel...I feel, FREE! I feel VICTORIOUS...I feel CAPABLE...I feel STRONG...I feel BRAVE...I feel ACCOMPLISHED...i feel LIKE AN ATHLETE!

“When you set your mind to do something, DO IT...Victory over OBESITY” (ME).

“Fighting obesity one decision at a time” (ME).

“JOIN THE FIGHT AGAINST OBESITY”

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