Tuesday, December 28, 2010

FINALE VIDEO - 2010






Wrapping up my year. I am so excited about what God has in store for my future. Check out the video!!!!



Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Reflections on Day 209: THE TRAINING HAS BEGUN...

So, I am on interterm from school and I decided to go harder and sign up with a trainer....what was I thinking? JUST KIDDING! I think God has blessed me with the most amazing trainer. Nevertheless, my body is in pain. Has me doing things I've never seen done...lol...All in all, I am proud of myself. Today was day 2 of training and at the end of the session she had me running sprints. I was so tired by time I stepped on and she asked me if I wanted to stop but I paused for a second and while my body was screaming, "YES"...my mind said "NO"...Bob from the Biggest Loser has a saying, "Stand up and finish what you started."

That quote has stuck with me every since I heard it on the show. I came in there with one goal, FINISH! So I told her that I am going to finish. I am so proud of myself these days. I have never felt more accomplished in my life. I am not going to lie. All of my fears have not dissipated but as I continue to look fear in the face and not allow it to hinder me, I become stronger and stronger and more able to fight my fears. I am only at session 2 of the 8 training sessions but I am excited about the girl I will be on the other side of these sessions.

The thing I like about trainers is that they push you harder than you would ever push yourself. They surpasses my pre-set limitations and they teach me that I am stronger than I allow myself to believe. We all need people in our lives like that, whether they are your trainers or friends, mentors, pastors. whatever! You need to be in the midst of people who see a better you, in you and will not give up on you. I have been blessed with an entire community of people who do that for me, from friends to people from church to my trainer. I love it! I feel like I have an advantage over others because I have sooooo many people in my corner. I know that I was not strong enough to do all of this on my own, I would not even be proud or cocky enough to make such a claim. I've needed every ounce of support that has been provided to dig deep and push and here I am 137lbs lighter!

THE TRAINING HAS BEGUN AND I AM EXCITED TO FINISH STRONG!!!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

350LBS AND DANCING! - Mobile.m4v

I don't ever want to be the girl who says, "Now that I am small, I can love myself." That's not my story. It's not my journey. I began to love me even when I was bigger and it was greatly because God had put people in my life who loved and accepted me as I was. So, as I journey to being a smaller me, I never want to forget the girl what was 350lbs and still loving life! This video is a tribute to a friend of mine was has passed but lives on with Jesus and especially in my heart. I pray that you have people in your life who empower you to BE YOU!!!




Sunday, December 5, 2010

REFLECTIONS ON MY 5K...12/5/2010




Today, December 5th, this morning, at 7:30am on the Back Lot of Universal Studios, I RAN MY FIRST EVER 5K. I have so many emotions, thoughts and feelings about this monumental moment in my life. You know, I am finally starting to feel like the girl I always knew was truly hidden deep inside of me. It’s like I am allowing her to be unleashed. I am not becoming some new, and unheard of Liana. I am unleashing the beast that has always been trapped behind all of my fears, uncertainties, and insecurities about life.

I’ve always felt that deep inside of me, there was an athlete but while I wanted to experience that world, my weight and fear of other people’s thoughts of me, held me bound and unmovable. I kinda just moved through life, experiencing happy moments but never really satisfied for full of joy because I always knew that a piece of me was trapped, silenced, tamed, paralyzed. But, this morning....THIS MORNING symbolized that unleashing of the me inside of all of me.

Around this time, 2007, I set out to take back my own life...to fight obesity. I was 350 plus pounds and miserable underneath all of the weight. I was a happy girl but my weight was just a hinderance that kept me from experiencing the fullness of life and i decided, NO MORE!....Here I am 3 years later, 220lbs and still fighting the fight. I’ve always felt like there was a runner deep inside of me. God didn’t give me these calves for nothing. I have not attainted it yet, but I press towards the mark...striving for excellence, knowing that God has not brought me this far along my journey to quit now.

I feel...I feel, FREE! I feel VICTORIOUS...I feel CAPABLE...I feel STRONG...I feel BRAVE...I feel ACCOMPLISHED...i feel LIKE AN ATHLETE!

“When you set your mind to do something, DO IT...Victory over OBESITY” (ME).

“Fighting obesity one decision at a time” (ME).

“JOIN THE FIGHT AGAINST OBESITY”

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Thursday, November 18, 2010

BIGGEST LOSER AUDITION VIDEO.mov

If you never had a chance to see my audition video for Season 10, here it is! Obviously, I didn't make the show because season 10 is airing right now but see how far i've come and where I started on this journey!



Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Monday, November 1, 2010

week 23 Pics





GOAL SHORTS = 11/30/10





Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Chapter 2 - week 22 - VLOG!

Week 22 Pics



WORKING ON MY SPLITS!!!




GOAL SHORTS BY 11/30/10



Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Chapter 2 Week 20 CHOOSE LIFE!

Week 20 PICTURES




WORKING ON MY FLEXIBILITY!!!



GOAL SHORTS = 11/30/10



Monday, October 4, 2010

Week 19 pics

Beginning Weight = 356 lbs

Weekly Lost = 1lb

Total Lost = 133lbs

Current Weight = 233lbs




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GOAL SHORTS BY 11/30/10





Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Chapter 2 - Week 18 - Mobile.m4v




CHECK OUT THE UPDATED PICS BELOW!!!!!

Week 18: NO WEIGH IN

So, I decided not to do a weigh in this week. I realized how unhealthy my attachment to the scale can be at times. I realize how if it does not display what I desire, though I am eating well and working out, that I allow it to set a negative tone in my day and my week. I wish I were stronger. I wish I could face the scale and not allow it to have power over me, like I do. Anywho, I know myself and I know I need to back away. I am not backing away from eating well and I am not backing away from exercise. I am just choosing not to allow the scale to control me. This is my life and my future and I am in control (outside of God of course) and as I am fighting to be free from obesity. I don't want to be enslaved to weight loss either. I want to freely embark on a journey to a HEALTHIER ME!!!!!





goal shorts 11/30/2101




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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Who's Report Do You Believe?

I think God allowed/ordained last week to occur for a very specific reason. Let me explain. Two very significant events occurred...

On Wednesday, I was on campus with a couple of friends and we were sitting around just chatting and having a good time. A young man comes walking our direction (and as black people do when we are on a campus where many of us don't exist), we greet him. We begin to have small talk with him and as he is about to leave, he looks at me and says "Bye Gorgeous!"

It totally threw me off. I had to even ask my friend, once he left "did he say what I think he said" and she was like yes, "He called you Gorgeous." That was significant for many reasons...

1. Because I have never been called gorgeous by a man on my first time meeting him and it really struck me as odd before I was even willing to receive it....

2. Because he never seen me or met me before. I point to this because I am so used to people telling me how good I look or how beautiful I am but I can't help to always think they are saying I am pretty or looking good in comparison to "fat liana" but with this dude not so....he simply thought I was beautiful upon meeting me and it meant the world of a difference. He wasn't looking at a progressive Liana that he had seen transform over time. No, he thought the woman sitting directly in front of him was gorgeous as she is and not in comparison. My beauty was not relative to the past me. He saw me for me in that moment.

On Friday, I went out for a friend's birthday. We were going to a show and as we were walking to the show, we encountered a drunk man. The man began to walk with us and harass us. He was pretty scary. Anywho, when we went to redeem our tickets for the show, the man targeted me and began to make fat jokes about me saying how I need to purchase two seats. It really hurt, went deep, brought up pain from childhood and in that moment, I just wanted to be invisible. I felt so small and insecure, fat and undesirable....and it really set the tone for my night. I had to choose to not to allow it to ruin my fun on my friend's birthday because her night mattered to me. So I stuffed the pain, pushed past it and began to to deal with it at another time...

WHY ARE THESE TWO EVENTS MEANINGFUL? Because I can hear the voice of the Lord saying, "Who's Report Do You Believe?" (Isaiah 53:1)...I choose to believe the Report of the Lord!!!...this week has been an example, that the enemy is active & will bring false "reports" my way to get me off track and to believe something other than God's truth!. I had a professor say, "God's mission since the garden of eden has been to correct the lies of the enemy"...He got Adam and Eve with a lie and he often tries to get me with lies as well but I hear the voice of the Lord saying, "WHO'S REPORT WILL YOU BELIEVE, LIANA?"

AND TODAY, I CHOOSE THE REPORT OF THE LORD! I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvelous are His works and that my soul knows very well...

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Chapter 2 - Week 17

It's been a crazy week!...check out the video.


Chapter 2 - Week 17

So, we are already in to week 17 of Chapter 2 and I am excited. I set out to lose 5lbs this week. I lost 3lbs but I am still happy about my results. I am going for it. My most pressing goal is to be under 200lbs by November 30th and to fit my goal shorts by Nobember 30th so HERE WE GO!!!!

Starting Weight = 356lbs
Weekly Loss = 3lbs
Overal Loss = 132 lbs
Current Weight = 224lbs




look at them guns!!!



goal shorts by 11/30/10



go back and see where i started and look how far i've come!!


Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Chapter 2 - Week 16 - Mobile.m4v

Welcome to "CHAPTER 2"...ENJOY THE JOURNEY WITH ME...


CHAPTER 2 - Week 16

I am so excited. Today begins the 2nd leg of my Weight Loss Journey. I call this "Chapter 2". This summer was quite amazing with a loss of 29lbs. I am going for it baby!!! I currently weigh 227lbs so my next major goal is be be 119lbs by November 30th. That means I have 2 1/2 months to loose 28lbs. I can do that. I make have to make some drastic (but healthy) decisions in the way I eat but it is sooooo doable. I have new goal pants, as you can see in the pictures and I am still taking pictures in the bra and shorts until I reach my final goal. It is my prayer that my journey inspires you to go for the "SEEMINGLY IMPOSSIBLE"!!

Starting Weight = 356lbs
Current Weight = 227lbs
Total Loss = 129lbs





GOALS SHORTS (size 12) = by NOVEMBER 30TH



Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Week 15- THE CULMINATION OF SUMMER - "believe in possibility"

FINAL SUMMER PHOTOS....it's been good!!!

I can honestly say, "This has been the best summer of my life." When I thought I wanted to be on the Biggest Loser, God had a different plan for me. He wanted to show me that I am strong enough to do this...most of my life I have doubted my own abilities and have often desired a "rescue plan" which is why I applied for the show in the first place....but, as long as I am looking for a rescue plan, I will never slow down long enough to see that God will strengthen me to fight my own battles...It is amazing what can be accomplished in 3 months, one day, one decision at a time...I bought those grey pants in the beginning of 2009 and wanted to fit them by February 2009....and at the beginning of this summer I still could not fit them but I had made up in my mind that I was going to go hard after my dreams and here I am, September 7, 2010 and I rocked those jeans on my birthday, which was my desire at the beginning of this summer. My journey is not complete and I know God has more in store for me but this Summer has made me believe that "impossible" is a mindset not a predetermined reality...so i strive with a drive to conquer every single thing in my life that I told myself I couldn't or I wouldn't do....This is my life and I am going to fight for it....I shouldn't expect someone to do it for me...With God's help, I will SOAR ON WINGS LIKE EAGLES!!!!!






Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Week 14 - VLOGGIN IT UP!!!

Week 14 - pics...so pleased!!!

I am almost to the end of my summer journey...but I won't be quitting, just starting Season 2....2morrow is my birthday, and as you can see, THE PANTS FIT!!...mission accomplished...whohooooo...check out the pics i took last night...so pleased.

Also, I weighed in. I've losted 1lbs last week, which gives me a total summer loss of 29lbs and a loss since 2007 of 129lbs...im on a mission....AINT NO STOPPING ME NOW!!!